N-Dimentional thoughts…

"Oye! Its Saturday today" was the first thought that came to my mind in the morning and I woke up with a smile. Had a very peaceful day – I’d say one of the best Saturday’s in the last couple of weeks.

Thoughts – they come & go and leave something behind for you to ponder over them forever. I love to sit on the floor, open the almirah and take out our photo albums and then remember all our childhood days, those special functions and laughing at every posture of my siblings, family, my friends and yes (I must admit) of mysef. God, I used to look so funny. Time just flies away – today I’m capable of doing many things, I’ve responsibilites to handle, my words matter a lot and then I’ve my dreams, aims and a life to live…

I wanted to become an astronaut at some point of time and after watching one Discovery channel’s hoarding today on my way back – that thought cropped up again. I really dream of seeing earth from a distance and then look around all the stars from space (not by staying on earth atleast). NDTV good times is a nice channel and they showed some beautiful places in Kerala today – I love watching nature and so I’d visit it soon. I also want to go on a cruise some day – a big cruise – travelling for atleast a month. That would be so nice – only water beneath and sky on the top….awesome Rupinder! Well, this list is endless but I’ll keep adding to it – my bucket list :)

At the same time, I feel myself to be responsible enough to aid people in need. Not exactly related to this aim of mine ….but last Sunday I went to the railway station for some work. It was early morning and mum asked me to wait for some time (45 mins ….that was not “some” …grrr). Anyways….I tried to pass my time looking at the local people there. I could spot one beggar in my front mirror and I watched him for 10-15 mins. He was perfectly normal but he sat on the road and moved his right hand up to pretend like a retarded person. Gosh…my face turned just like the “surprise” emoticon of Yahoo Messenger. It was 7-7:15 am and people were opening their shops, cleaning the surroundings. I really liked to be a part of them that day!

Then the news channels (talking about the recent Mumbai attacks) – they all urge me to become an army personnel. I salute our Army from the bottom of my heart…losing your “LIFE” for someone else is such a genuine, a noble and a courageous act. I really do not understand what takes a 21 yrs old man to become a terrorist but I do understand and respect the spirit of a 31 yrs old man to give his life for the people of his nation. Hats off to you all - who fought for us, who protected us and who still stand like a wall surrounding us for our safety.

And then last but not the least I think of finishing all my responsibilities successfully.
Amen!

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The weather is all perfect to go on for long drives these days. Unfortunately, my driving route encounters heavy Begumpet traffic before I reach my office. But the best part is that it gives me more time to enjoy my favourite numbers ;)...was listening to one Rock On song (yeh tumhari meri baatein) when the sky appeared so beautiful to me; I could spot 2-3 layers of clouds - the ones in the lowest layer were chasing each other as if they were playing some Olympic game, the second layer was supervising the lowest layer and the top layer was silent as if watching each of them with patience. It seemed so perfect and so natural to me. And then my eyes came down and I thanked God for I can appreciate the beauty of nature - and the very next moment I witnessed the plight of a small girl asking me for some money. It was so ironic, I wondered if that girl had had ever looked at the clouds in that way. But I cant be so sure, perhaps she did.....I get sad...sad to the core when I see somebody in pain. Yesterday itself I entered into an argument with Mum when she was about to kill a poor cockroach...I had to drag the small creature out of the home somehow ...to save it (well, that was a big task :|).

Well...Its Diwaliiii tomorrow - festivals instill a different kind of excitement in all of us! Atleast I feel great to celebrate such moments...it bonds us together. Moreover, I just love the lighting all around...isn't it amazing to see sky full of multi-colored lights, all those crackers, the delicious food at home, the candles in gurudwaras and the diyas all around! Complete aeshhh...

I hope to have a good time and wish that this Diwali and the coming new year brings with it a lot of happiness, peace n prosperity! God bless...

Attitude and you!

"Hey!"..."Good morning guys"..."Hello, how was the weekend?" these are one of the few ways I (want and ) usually start my day in office! It definitely makes me feel energetic in the beginning hours (the drowsiness an hour after opening my laptop is another matter though, we all need a tea break in the morning; dont we? ;)).

I really love putting myself completely into whatever I do and if there is a single doubt or uncertainty in any corner of my heart, I would not succeed 70% of the times. I strike a ratio of around 60-40% of optimism and pessimism (bad score but yeah I'll improve!). These numbers mature with experience and what we need to do is to focus on our weaknesses keeping our strengths in mind. Once you know where you are wrong, the next moment you see perfection embracing you gracefully.

Sometimes people wants to change their jobs just because of ego clashes, for their inefficiency to gel with the people around etc. I think there is no worse time to look for a new job than when you hate the one you have. Rather we should try to change our attitude and get to the root of our problems so we can get the most from the current job — and maybe even like it again.

I believe this aspect goes well with any any kind of situation. The more I learn from my mistakes, the more i feel i need to work on. Our lives are sometimes like a sacred book, you get a new meaning every time you read the same sentence when the fact is that there is only one significance to it!

Chao till next time..

"Cast your cares on God; that anchor holds"

Do you ever stare into the mirror not wondering at what you see but wondering at what you dont see, what is within your heart, what makes you so lively, what motivates you..what drives you to make your dream a reality....why despite all failures you still feel confident that you will succeed...Do you ever see any answers or do you just find more questions?

In tough times and terrible moments, what do I do? Should I demand that God please fix my problem ...make them fade away or help me find a way out so i can run away or should I ask how he is revealing His self in these situations and ask for enough wisdom and strength to go through it?

I heard someone saying "Hardship and trial come by two ways, by God's will and by our disobedience." and i feel either way there is learning. Waheguru loves us, he is with us always...he dreams great for our lives...but should I risk to follow that dream?? hmmmm...

We were discussing on "fearing God" at lunch table today. I asked my pals and got various replies. I am thinking as to why should we be afraid of God when we say he is with us all the times...he loves us. But again at the same time, we should be afraid of Him as he can punish us anytime for our wrong deeds.

Sometimes i feel He has a plan for us, he has dreamt something for us, he wants somebody to instruct us, he wants us to treasure some moments, he wants us to move ahead, he wants us to be perfect ...the way everyone should be. He knows us so well that our fears, weaknesses, strengths are all part of the plan. Our fears are our limits...the boundaries which He will make us cross. I believe in Him...and so will i act....i'll move in the direction he has chosen for me. May He direct and guide me to become the woman of His choice!!! :)

Listening to the silence!

I've often wondered how we walk through the lanes of life, how the priorities keep on changing as we move ahead. Sometimes we don’t see anything in dark but still find our way out. I believe in "that" force which is driving us.

As a child, my ultimate desire at EOD had always been to convince mum for letting us play a little longer in the evening. She used to sit along with us for finishing the homework and we three innocently looking at each other used to plan "something" for getting out of the room...i guess thats when i started liking cricket so much. The priority was to play (come wat may be...). :-) I had my favourite subjects in school...and today i think it was all because of my teachers. I never liked my History ma'am (not that i hated her...please mind it!! :P ) and thats why i never liked this subject also. I was the favourite student of my maths and english teachers and therefore those were "the interesting" subjects too: P :P. So it depends a lot on the teachers to develop that likeliness in the subject (deep thought........). Then there were times when i became a true Indian, a patriotic heart which used to cry so much thinking of our freedom fighters. All the 15th aug and 26th Jan movies on Doordarshan were a must must watch. The priority had changed a bit. With time, studies were on peak and the "career" too. That competition, those thoughts of doing something...changed the priorities too. Knowingly...unknowingly there was something to achieve. And later the final entry into the world, the college…. and with time a job in hand! At every point of time, there was an aim, a faith which like an infection was easy to catch and impossible to stamp out.

With all the personal and professional experiences, i've witnessed the "me"...myself; and m no less than proud of it!! :-)

I dream of getting a restful sleep "every" night, waking up refreshed and invigorated...a dream to live in a landscape which would resound with an eloquent silence under the inverted bowl of the sky where you share your experiences with ur loved ones, where u "live" ur life!!!

There are many milestones to cross, many desires to be fulfilled, many hopes to keep up, many aims to achieve!!!

Hmmm..

I am coming


I know it's wrong
So I commit to it
I laugh at the clean, black emptiness
Of the unknown before me
I laugh heartily
Knowing the darkness can hear me
And while the Angels would hush me
I bellow out with arms extended
I am here.
Free!
And though I respect you, Great Beyond
Today, with your attention
I let you know…
I am coming!


Keoki Trask

Women's Day!

Holiday honors people or events and one of those meaningful days is today – Women’s day! There is life because of her, she makes living a life, she makes house a home, she nurtures happiness in a family, she goes out of the way to care for her loved ones, she is strong, she is bold & dynamic & progressive, she is beautiful and that "she" resides in me! :-)

All the newspapers were full of appreciation for today’s women – for managing home and establishing herself as a successful professional in the outside world. Undoubtedly this deserves an applause for all the women because she has the power to organize a shambolic environment, she tote that love for her closed ones, she helps you see the shore when you in middle of a turbulent ocean, she gives you hope, she lights candle towards the right road, she is the dor of your life!!

I have always adored Mother Teresa for her determination, that perseverance towards such an admirable cause. Even if I could do a bit of what she did, it would be worth my life. Many women have influenced my being and on this special occasion I would like to specially thank my mom and sis for being a tremendous support every time. I’m thankful to my mom for bringing that glass of water every morning to wake me up, for making me eat the breakfast at any cost, for listening to my crap in the evenings, for cooking those special dishes every time we demand, for hugging me when I’m sad, for making me thank God for good, for buying those cute dresses and accessories she thinks would look great on me :-) basically for everything. Love you mummm! And of course the same goes for my cutie cutie sister. Her strongness, calmness and that willpower has always inspired me in my life. I thank you for making me smile, for guiding me always, for holding me strong when I fall, for not judging me when I lose my mind, for trusting, loving and for being with me always. I miss our occasional spats sis…I just miss being with you! Love you a lot!!!! And I don’t want to overlook this opportunity to thank my father and brother as well. You all are part of me and I respect and love you all!

Not to forget I would like to thank all my friends too who have been with my ups and downs, who celebrates my success, my happiness, who understands me. I thank you for listening to me when you are busy, for all those surprise gifts, for shutting your mouth when I’m angry, for taking those zabardasti ki treats, for making that cup of tea or getting that bottle of coke, for making me realize that i'm th best :-) :-) . In short, for being there even after knowing all about me ;) ;)

Man, this is like getting an Oscar award and thanking everyone out there. But trust me, when I see so many nice people around me, it feels no less than that.

I just wish everyone to be happy always – God bless us!! I just watched one of my favourite movies today – "Dor" and here’s a few lines I liked the most, remember them (and remind me :-) ) when down!

"Yeh Hosla Kaise Juke….Yeh Aarzoo Kaise Ruke…Manzil Muskil to kya…Bundla Sahil to kya..... Hooo…"


Lets raise a toast for ourselves and celebrate the occasion!!

Unforgettable moment...

Don't remember if I've ever had a more visceral reaction to any incident recently than I did to what happened today. I was traveling in an auto amidst heavy traffic when at a junction, i noticed a small pigeon stuck in middle of the road, trying its best to fly and the cars were zooming besides it like anything. For a second, i got scared to witness the plight of the poor bird but the next moment i could spot a traffic guy looking at me. I waived at him and pointed to the struggling creature and to my amazement, he started walking towards the road, raised his hand up and stopped the traffic for a while. He lifted the pigeon gently and carried it to a safe place near the junction. I gave him a thumps up and a big smile!!!!! (God, that was a moment) I wanted to thank him personally but it was too late as my auto guy zoomed ahead with the changed green signal in front of us.

I felt so good! I guess such moments just give you a feeling that cannot be explained. But yes, it deserves to be part of my blog to be cherished forever and of course three cheers for that traffic man!